Monday, April 25, 2005
today i finally went to your blog. i finally understand your side of the story.
i was wrong to be so be straightforward with you. My comments were really very insulting. I'm sorry i did not consider about how you would feel. I wish you would tell me, at least the frenship would still be there. why did you destroy the frenship first, before telling me the reason? Just suddenly, you didn't talk to me anymore. How did i feel? Why didn't you tell me.. i regret not being sensitive enough but i tot i could say what i thought..i'm sorry. I knew you were bearing a grudge against me after i heard what you said. i was always afraid of you being lead astray by others, thats why i was so harsh on you. but everything backfired i guess. I should have known that you would take her side. you're right, i have changed. Filled wif hate. condemning people all the time. i finally realise it now. I notice the way u treat me these days too. I dun wan to hate you. After what happened between us, i dun really dare to say how i feel anymore. its the same painful feeling again. the feeling of losing a friend, the feeling of making a mistake. last time i felt that was after i broke wif her. Do you know how important as a fren you were to me? I took your kindness for granted too. i'm sorry. i finally realise that i'm just like those people that i hate. My attitude, my comments. what right do i have to hate them, when i myself am just lik that. Thanks for showing me what i have done. But still i want to ask you something..do you want a friend who tells u what u want to hear or a friend who tells u what u need to hear? i miss the old days when we were still pals. But your msg that day. I think it has changed me even more. I dun hate you. yet. i dun wish to hate you either. After this incident, i dun think i hate them anymore either. I know you all will not forgive me. Help me apologise to her, wilson. Help me apologize to them too. i don wan to be hated either.. now i know how torturous it is. Hopefully we will be pals again someday. Last of all, i wan to apologize to you wilson. Sorry.
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