Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Yo. Hi frens. Maybe i should call my blog once in a blue moon. duh its because that's how often i update. you get the point.
Ok lets start with the house. Yes my crisis is over. My room is still intact! We got new floors from the hdb. Yeah life's pretty good now.
After the past events, i've learnt a lot. There was this period when i sort of, 'woke up'. Kinda monk like. I discovered what it meant to be calm. It just helped me to think clearly. Especially during tests. I didn't panic at all. No increase in heartbeat. I didn't make jokes or talk much. IT was good. For a while. I almost really turned into a monk. Or should i say, Taoist. Being concerned with Self. How one should keep to one's self. But i tried to share the benefits of all this.Which was really frustrating. I started to feel superior. Didn't understand why they couldn't understand what i was saying. Then i realise well maybe because they haven't gone through similar experiences. And i realised that the key was balance. You can't be a joker or a monk all the time. You'll go crazy. seriously. We all need to know when to stop and when to move. Yeah its really easy to say. I'm trying so hard to do this everyday. But life is still pretty happy.
This has been the most fruitful two months of my footballing life. The moment i learnt how to be calm, i applied it to my street football skills. I learnt the mechanics behind the movement of spheres. Its all the same, be it basketball, hockey, football, pool. I was so excited when i succeeded in such a short time doing all those tricks i saw online .I'm a much better player now.
I still remember i applied the same logics to my hockey. and I dribbled the hockey ball that night in my room much better than i did for the whole of last year. Its really true, once u get the concept, everything is much simpler. But i guess i became too eager to try all this. Which lead to my outburst at not beig given the chance to play for the team. Thankfully they helped me to realise that i was letting my ego take over me. Daniel taught me the basics of field again. I applied the same logic to it and i enjoye playing that saturday. Looking forward to this saturday's training.
Ok time to update on some other stuff. ya i confessed to her that day. Well we settled it maturely as adults. She's got her priorities and we are still friends. Sort of. Not so sure after how i accidentally provoked her by teasing her a little about her little mishap on stage with the announcement. haven't talked to her since. She avoids eye contact with me la. Wat can i do? like that lo.
And then today also. wah la jeffrey. nice one la. lucky. claudyne wrote him a note. I think its very nice of her. You don't see mr ang writing jeffrey a note for helping with the go green day video rite? Ya la i find claudyne attractive la. i tot the whole world know already thanks to ben. but find her attractive only what. Well being Friends would be nice. But i dun think she has a good impression of me. Then again, how many people left in this world has a good impression of me? People only see the noisy, joker, occassionally himbo side of me. Ya, they dunno when to stop. Jeffrey says i should take action. But i dun dare leh. not like she will eat me up la but awkward la. just awkward. Thanks to ben who opens the gates of hell when he plays canon in d. Whole oac know i'm attracted to her. Which pretty much ruins my chances of even being friends i think. And that time when i say i was happy when we exchanged smiles of acknowledgement. or at least i think we did. Haiz. Now i don't think that will ever happen again since its been blown out of proportion by the paparazzi people aka my friends in tj. Ya i guess that's life. Claudyne, if you'e reading this, I'm REALLY SORRY for any disturbance caused. Didn't know that people would even talk about this high up in the mountains in nepal. But i'm used to all this gossip since my secondary school days so i'm still able to take it but i dunno if u're used to it therefore i sincerely apologise once again. Haiz. Till next post Folks!
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